where are the deeper things?
Surface level stuff seems good in my life, but I have an aching that I am missing something deeper. Perhaps like Martha I’m distracted from spending time with Jesus, sitting at his feet, infusing the rhythms of his life with mine. When people sleep, events are over, activities at rest the emptiness consumes me.
I wanted to pray today and couldn’t. Where are the deeper things? I’d like to think I drink of the deep well of God’s love, but I haven’t felt the refreshing of it.
The next few weeks I will seek to find the deep where I can anchor my anxiety. Hope compels me. I tried to pray today and couldn’t. So I wrote.
June 29th, 2010 at 11:12 am
It occurs to me that sometimes writing can be just as “prayerful” as that activity which we often think of as prayer (eyes closed, head bowed, hands folded and knees bent). The mystics and contemplatives often experienced “dry times” or dark nights of the soul”. Some even wrote (Methcild of Magdeburg, Margureite of Poirte, John of the Cross just to name a few). Their writings of prose, poetry and prayers have commuicated to many through the years their passion and pain, their love, their hope and their expereinces of kenosis on the part of God. These are precisely the times, I think, when the deeper things are revealed. In sahring with others you open the door through which we can expereince this divine revealtion with you. That is a wonderful gift to give. Thanks for allowing us to share this with you.
August 12th, 2010 at 5:11 pm
Josh, I’ve been so busy this summer I’ve missed these postings. Shame on me! I’ve been like Martha, too. I agree with kc. I also believe that the Spirit speaks your heart to God when you want to pray but can’t think how to speak; that’s so cool about God! He has a way for us to pray without ceasing if we just have a willing and loving attitude.
Jo